WTF

“Wow, Rosemary,” I text, “why have you forsaken me?”

Is that a joke? I don’t know. It’s pretty much indicative, though, of how I see the world. I’ve simply got no object constancy when it comes to people in my life. If they aren’t present, actively responding to everything I say I feel as though I’ve driven them away. Then I dive them away. I’m not sure which is more secretly appealing, indulging in the idea that no one can love me and I’ll just be abandoned or cashing in on that self-fulfilling prophesy when, exasperated, people ultimately turn away from my selfish, needy and downright transparent attempts to vie for their attention.
Stay tuned folks. PLEASE!!! OR DON'T, I DON'T REALLY CARE WHAT YOU THINK ANYWAY. No, really, I didn't mean it, what did you think of that?